Once again, feeling all alone. Like I still don't belong anywhere. Just tired. Tired of all the feelings of inadequacies. Tired of feeling left  out. No one that I get to connect to. It is me. It must be. No matter where I go, I am isolated. Whether self inflicted or not, I can't do this anymore. I'm drowning and it's getting darker again.

This is a hard day. Harder than I thought it was going to be in a million years. I'm going to represent Mom to finish the closing on selling her home. The house I grew up in. The house that has a thousand memories for all of us. And yet her I am, feeling all alone. Feeling that my world has been shattered and nothing will ever be the same.
I continually try to look at the positive to no avail. My broken heart just keeps screaming.