I am struggling and can't get this out my head. Part of me wants to be the momma bear on attack. And yet the other part continues to question what I could have done differently. Did I fail my son? He is angry with his dad and even said "You haven't done anything for me since fourth grade why should I expect anything different now." I hurt for him. I was hoping as he got older his dad would change. But people don't change until they see the need, Myself included.
So part of me wants to point out to his dad his shortcomings. But it never works that way. It rarely ever has.
Then for whatever stupid reason I keep turning my sons pain inward and make it about me. Have I failed him? What does he really think of me? And what can't I just let it go? I continue to ask myself what I should have done differently over the years to ensure his emotional health. But I can't take on that full responsibility.
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