Reminders

Counting down the days until the school year ends. It's funny how life flows in a circle. As much as we want to think we are moving upwards, there are parts that just don't. I am still in school. I started in 1975 in preschool when I was 3 because it was free, finished in 1990, started again with Clayton in 1999, went back in 2004-2008, started again with Abby in 2007, (every Mom knows thats truly how it is), started again myself in 2011, and now I teach.  My life must have its own circadian rhythm. Anyway.
I keep trying to define myself. Find my meaning and purpose in life. I just read a devotional blog that simply reminded my that I nor anyone else can define who I am. God has provided the perfect definition for me and I need to lean into him to capture that truth. I am a child of the one true King!
Then my mind flip flops. What about wife, mom, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, teacher? What about all those things? How do I make the voices in my head calm and assured?
Clayton should be home soon and yet my head is already dreading it in some way. This will be the last I see of him for 6 months or more. How do moms go through this stuff? No one warned me about this part!
Abby has changed so much. I hope I am being a Godly parent but I feel so inadequate.